Fragments of a Hologram Rose

Fragments of a Hologram Rose

by William Gibson

© 1977 UnEarth Publications

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That summer Parker had trouble sleeping.

There were power droughts; sudden failures of the delta-inducer brought
painfully abrupt returns to consciousness.

To avoid these, he used patch cords, miniature alligator clips, and black
tape to wire the inducer to a battery-operated ASP-deck. Power loss in the
inducer would trigger the deck's playback circuit.

He brought an ASP cassette that began with the subject asleep on a quiet
beach. It had been recorded by a young blonde yogi with 20-20 vision and an
abnormally acute color sense. The boy had been flown to Barbados for the
sole purpose of taking a nap and his morning's exerciseon a brilliant
stretch of private beach. The microfiche laminate in the cassette's
transparent case explained that the yogi could will himself through alpha
to delta without an inducer. Parker, who hadn't been able to sleep without
an inducer for two years, wondered if this was possible.

He had been able to sit through the whole thing only once, though by now he
knew every sensation of the first five subjective minutes. He thought the
most interesting part of the sequence was a slight editing slip at the
start of the elaborate breathing routine: a swift glance down the white
beach that picked out the figure of a guard patrolling a chain link fence,
a black machine pistol slung over his arm.

While Parker slept, power drained from the city's grids.

The transition from delta to delta-ASP was a dark implosion into other
flesh. Familiarity cushioned the shock. He felt the cool sand under his
shoulders. The cuffs of his tattered jeans flapped against his bare ankles
in the morning breeze. Soon the boy would wake fully and begin his
Ardha-Matsyendra-something; with other hands Parker groped in darkness for
the ASP deck.

Three in the morning.

Making yourself a cup of coffe in the dark, using a flashlight when you
pour the boiling water.

Morning's recorded dream, fading: through other eyes, dark plume of a Cuban
freighter - fading with the horizon it navigates across the mind's gray
screen.

Three in the morning.

Let yesterday arrange itself around you in flat schematic images. What you
said - what she said - watching her pack - dialing the cab. However you
shuffle them they form the same printed circuit, hieroglyphs converging on
a central component: you, standing in the rain, screaming at the cabby.

The rain was sour and acid, nearly the color of piss. The cabby called you
an asshole; you still had to pay twice the fare. She had three pieces of
luggage. In his respirator and goggles, the man looked like an ant. He
pedaled away in the rain. She didn't look back.

The last you saw of her was a giant ant, giving you the finger.

Parker saw his first ASP unit in Texas shantytown called Judy's Jungle. It
was a massive console in cheap plastic chrome. A ten-dollar bill fed into
the shot bought you five minutes of free-fall gymnastics in a Swiss orbital
spa, trampoining through twenty-meter perihelions with a sixteen-year-old
Vogue model - heady stuff for the Jungle, where it was simpler to buy a gun
than a hot bath.

Hewas in New York with forged papers a year later, when two leading firms
had the first portable decks in major department stores in time for
Christmas. The ASP porn theathers that had boomed briefly in California
never recovered.

Holography went too, and the block-wide Fuller domes that had been the holo
temples of Parker's childhood became multilevel supermarkets, or housed
dusty amusement arcades where you still might find the old consoles, under
faded neon pulsing APPARENT SENSORY PERCEPTION through a blue haze of
cigarette smoke.

Now Parker is thirty and writes continuity for broadcast ASP, programming
the eye movements of the industry's human cameras.

The brown-out continues.

In the bedroom, Parker prods the brushed-aluminium face of his Sendai
Sleep-Master. Its pilot light flickers, then lapses into darkness. Coffe in
hand, he crosses the carpet to the closet he emptied the day before. The
flashlight's beam probes the bare shelves for evidence of love, finding a
broken leather sandal strap, an ASP cassette, and a postcard. The postcard
is a white light reflection hologram of a rose.

At the kitchen sink, he feeds the sandal strap to the disposal unit.
Sluggish in the brown-out, it complains, but swallows and digests. Holding
it carefully between thumb and forefinger, he lowers the hologram toward
the hidden rotating jaws. The unit emits a thin scream as steel teeth slash
laminated plastic and the rose is shredded into a thousand fragments.

Later he sits on the unmade bed, smoking. Her casette is n the deck ready
for playback. Some women's tapes disorients him, but he doubts this is the
reason he now hesitates to start the machine.

Roughly a quarter of all ASP users are unable to comfortably assimilate the
subjective body picture of the opposite sex. Over the years some broadcast
ASP stars have become increasingly androgynous in an attempt to capture
this segment of the audience.

But Angela's own tapes have never intimidated him before. (But what if she
has recorded a lover?) No, that can't be it - it's simply that the casette
is an entirely unknown quantity.

When Parker was fifteen, his parents indentured him to the American
subsidiary of a Japanise plastics combine. At the time, he felt fortunate;
the ratio of applicants to indentured trainees was enormous. For three
years he lived with his cadre in a dormitory, singing the company hymns in
formation each morning and usually managing to go over the compound fence
at least once a month for girls or the holodrome.

The indenture would have terminated on his twentieth birthday, leaving him
eligible for full employee status. A week before his nineteenth birthday,
with two stolen credit cards and a change of clothes, he went over the
fence for the last time. He arrived in California three days before the
chaotic New Secessionist regime collapsed. In San Fransisco, warring
splinter groups hit and ran in the streets. One or another of four
different 'provisional' city governements had done such an efficient job of
stockpiling food that almost none was available at street level

Parker spent the last night of the revolution in a burned out Tucson
suburb, making love to a thin teenager from New Jersey who explained the
finer points of her horoscope between bouts of almost silent weeping that
seemed to have nothing at all to do with anything he did or said.

Years later he realized that he no longer had any idea of his original
motive in breaking his indenture.

The first three quarters of the cassette had been erased; you punch
yourself fast-forward through a static haze of wiped tape, where taste and
scent blur into a single channel. The audio input is white sound - the
no-sound of the first dark sea . . . (Prolonged input from wiped tape can
induce hypnagogic hallucination.)

Parker crouched in the roadside New Mexico brush at midnight, watching a
tank burn on the highway. Flame lit the broken white line he had followed
from Tucson. The explosion had been visible two miles away, a white sheet
of heat lighting that had turned the pale branches of a bare tree against
the night sky into a photographic negative of themselves: carbon branches
against magnesium sky.

Many of the refugees were armed.

Texas owed the shantytowns that steamed in the warm Gulf rains to the
uneasy neutrality she had maintaned in the face of the Coast's attempted
secession.

The towns were built of plywood, cardboard, plastic sheets that billowed in
the wind, and the bodies of dead vehicles. They had names like Jump City
and Sugaree, and loosely defined governements and territories that shifted
constantly in the covert winds of a black-market economy.

Federal and state troops sent in to sweep the outlaw towns seldom found
anything. But after each search a few men would fail to report back. Some
had sold their weapons and burned their uniforms, and others had come too
close to the contraband thay had been sent to find.

After three months, Parker wanted out, but goods were the only safe passage
through the army cordons. His chance came only by accident: Late one
afternoon, skirting the pall of greasy cooking smoke that hung low over the
Jungle, he stumbled and nearly fell on the body of a woman in a dry creek
bed. Flies rose up in an angry cloud, then settled again, igoring him. She
had a leather jacket, and at night Parker was usually cold. He began to
search the creek bed for a lenght of brushwood.

In the jacket's back, just below her left shoulder blade, was a round hole
that would have admitted the shaft of a pencil. The jacket's lining had
been red once, but now it was black, stiff and shining with dried blood.
With the jacket swaying on the end of his stick, he went looking for water.

He never washed the jacket; in its left pocket he found nearly an ounce of
cocaine, carefuly wrapped in plastic and surgical tape. The right pocket
held fifteen ampules of Megacillin-D and a ten-inch hornhandled
switchblade. The antibiotic was worth twice its weight in cocaine.

He drove the knive hilt-deep into a rotten stump passed over by the
Jungle's wood-gatherers and hung the jacket there, the flies circling it as
he walked away.

That night, in a bar with a corrugated iron roof, waiting for one of the
'lawyers' who worked passages through the cordon, he tried his first ASP
machine. It was huge, all chrome and neon, and the owner was very proud of
it; he had helped hijack the truck himself.

If the chaos of the nineties reflects a radical shift in the paradigms of
visual literacy, the final shift away from the Lascaux/Gutenberg tradition
of a pre-holographic society, what should we expect from this newer
technology, with its promise of discrete encoding and subsequent
reconstruction of the full range of sensory perception?

- Rosebuck and Pierhal, Recent American History: A Systems View.

Fast forward through the humming no-time of wiped tape - into her body.
European sunlight. Streets of a strange city.

Athens. Greek-letter signs and the smell of dust . . .

- and the smell of dust.

Look through her eyes (thinking, this woman hasn't met you yet; you're
hardly out of Texas) at the gray monument, the horses there in stone, where
pigeons whirl up and circle -

- and static takes love's body, wipes it clean and gray. Waves of white
sound break along a beach that isn't there. And the tape ends.

The inducer's light is burning now.

Parker lies in darkness, recalling the tousand fragments of the hologram
rose. A hologram that has this quality: Recovered and illuminated, each
fragment will reveal the whole image of the rose. Falling toward delta, he
sees himself the rose, each of his scattered fragments revealing a whole
he'll never know - stolen credit cards - a burned out suburb - planetary
conjunctions of a stranger - a tank burning on a highway - a flat packet of
drugs - a switchblade honed on concrete, thin as pain.

Thinking: We're each other's fragments, and was it always this way? That
instant of a European trip, deserted in the gray sea of wiped tape - is she
closer now, or mor real, for his having been there?

She had helped him get his papers, found him his first job in ASP. Was that
their history? No, history was the black face of the delta-induce, the
empty closet, and the unmade bed. History was his loathing for the perfect
body he woke in if the juice dropped, his fury at the pedal-cab driver, and
her refusal to look back through the contaminated rain.

But each fragment reveals the rose from a different angle, he remembered,
but delta swept over him before he could ask himself what that might mean.